The Good, Bad and the Ugly

I promised the good, bad, and the ugly. How about a combo of Good, Bad and Ugly, What could possibly be all three at once. I can’t taste food. Everything is yucky. I have lost a few pounds. Easy to limit calories when nothing tastes good. Even water is ugly. Ate something super spicy, Nothing! But my tummy reminded me later that it did not like spice and it didn’t matter that I couldn’t taste it.

Good. Nearly to the end of chemo and I have tolerated the treatments well. A nasty rash attacked but was quickly brought under control with antibiotics and steroids. Bonus, a sore, scaly spot on my hand for years has disappeared.

The Bad, I never thought I could feel so weak and tired and still have such trouble sleeping. I would love some good solid sleep but make do with an hour or two. This isn’t forever. I get rest, laying quietly in bed, listening to the quiet. Rest is the most I can hope for at this time.

The Ugly, as I approach the end of Chemo treatments, the Radiation Doctor has scheduled first appointment. From what I have read, this will not be a fun event. Lots of measuring, poking, arranging of body parts. Uncomfortable at best. Then there is my super fair skin and the ability to get a sunburn by a light bulb, well, almost. It will be daily trips,5 out 7, torture for sure. But, it is another step closer to the end of this journey.

Looking at the entire trip is overwhelming.  But for one day, one hour, I can do anything.  Just one step at a time.

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10 Responses to The Good, Bad and the Ugly

  1. Suzanne Budovec says:

    God bless you Helaine! With your strength from within & God’s favor; you’ll get through this. Thank you for sharing your journey.

  2. Jimmy smith says:

    It is so good of you to share all of it. You only need to call if you have needs these hands can help

  3. Anonymous says:

    One of my favorite quotes from Tom’s Mom: “Life by the yard is hard, but inch by inch it’s a cinch!” You have been a real trooper through all those inches. I hope you will be feeling much better before too many more yards have passed.

  4. Kate Bright says:

    You are going through so much! It’s a good thing you are such a tough old gal. I send love and caring your way.

  5. Fred says:

    Helaine, we all admire the way you are dealing with this situation. We know you will win. You know you have an amazing bunch of people pulling for you. Any one of us will be there for whatever you may need.

  6. Joan Lason says:

    Oh Helaine, you don’t deserve this. Please put me on call for rides to your radiation treatments and anything else you’re in need of.

  7. Need a ride during the treatments … sign me up.

  8. Ann David says:

    Helaine, ask your Dr if cannabis would help with the bad side effects. It may help with sleep and appetite. Cougar Cannabis is very helpful and knowledgeable about medical use. Lots of edibles.
    Also, the radiation isn’t that bad. The first appointment is a lot of poking and making your pillow, you will also get your tattoos.
    Hugs are with you. Stay strong, you have a lot of people rooting for you.

  9. Ruby Bonham says:

    My heart goes out to you. I really appreciate the time we spent talking and remembering. Just remember there are two more supporting you and take comfort that all will be well. Love and light.

  10. Beanna says:

    Helaine: Thank you! Tis really an inch at a time. We love you and you are in
    Our prayers and thoughts. I’m a good driver if you should need a ride anyplace, or maybe pick up some cannabis for you!!!!!!!!

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